Reality Hit Me

Reality finally hit me that my husband will be gone for 7 months. I'm fine during the day when I am at work but as the day starts to wind down I get a lonely feeling at the pit of my stomach. I suppose that's a bit normal right? It's almost been 2 weeks and you would think it gets better but for me I just got slapped in the face with the reality of it all. I try to keep as busy as possible but during the end of the day it goes downhill. I am trying to be strong for my husband because I know he doesn't need to worry about me cause he has enough of his own out there. It gets a little better after I have a good cry. I also am so afraid for his safety but I am trying to keep my thoughts positive and think of how good it will be to have him in my arms again when he gets home. I think I am going to do a workshop they have here called "Spouses in the Midst" it's for those spouses who have deployed Marines/Sailors. I think that will help me a lot. To know that I am not the only one going through deployments. I am happy when I get to talk to him but when i'm not talking to him I worry about him a lot. I know he is busy doing his job but I can't help but worry. My brain gets the best of me a lot! I think I am going to start my scrap booking soon to help me pass the time while I am home alone in the evenings. Luckily I have my family to spend the weekend with. I stayed at my mom's house last night with my cousin and I was fine around people. But I have to come home to let my doggies out and feed them. They do good when I stay one night away but I don't like leaving them much. Well anyways I need to find more things to do around here. I think I will start to clean out the garage. We have a lot of things we just don't use anymore. I will do that tomorrow since I have nothing else to do. I will probably go to Wal-Mart to buy a new fan for the house. Our other one broke it tends to get hot without one. So yeah I think I know what I am doing tomorrow then. Time for bed I am getting sleepy.