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Finally got a chance to blog again. I have been busy with work and family. My uncle had to have brain surgery to both left side and right side of his head. They inserted a tube to drain out some blood clots he had. Thank God he is doing better now. They took the tube on the left side out but still has the right. We are hoping it drains soon so they can take it out as well. But he is talking now and he recognizes people. He can move all of his body which is great. So yes I have been in and out of the hospital with my aunts and uncles and cousins visiting. Work has been...well work lol! Oh I joined a L.A. Fitness gym and got a personal trainer. Today is my second session. My legs still hurt from the first one lol...but that was expected. My trainer is good so far. She is only 21 but she knows her stuff. Trying to lose weight and get in shape that way I can surprise my hubby when he gets home. Speaking of my husband. I got to talk to him this morning and I always feel great after talking to him and know he is doing well and he is safe. This Thursday July 21st is our 4 year anniversary. I am a little bummed that he won't be here. This is our first anniversary and holidays without each other. In that sense I am grateful that up until now I got to spend all the special days with him. These holidays will be hard but each one of those days is a day closer to holding each other again. It will be a month this 28th and I cannot believe how fast it has gone by already. Today is just one of those days that I know there is family around me but I somehow still feel alone. I have a sense of emptiness inside me without AJ. I have my good days and my bad days. Today is just ok. It feels like homecoming is years away still. I try to keep as positive and busy as possible and it is helping me so far. Thank God! Well it's gym time for me thanks for reading hopefully I will have more time to blog these coming weeks. Later :)